I always get the urge this time of year to purge, delete, declutter---- whatever word you want to put to it. Almost everything in my life that could possibly be improved, I really fight the impulse to completely overthrow. For example, this blog. I think of all the ways I could have actually written these posts cleaner or with more wit, or in ways that are a million times more interesting, and it's all I can do to not delete the whole thing. Because something unstarted is not yet tainted by my own bumbling inexperience. Funny, how once you actually do something, it can always be better. Almost feels safer to never make the effort.
The same goes for my house/home right now. I've completely reorganized most of the kitchen cupboards. And now I feel like just getting a new house. Move the mess and it's gotta get cleaner. At least, you get to start again.
But I guess there has to be some value to the moment, to letting things be what they are. Spend your whole life planning and organizing, you never get to just living.
Yup, I'm feeling wise tonight. Or just wanting to feel better about not getting to my next project: I'm finishing painting the front room. I've moved the front room stuff out of the way, but now, it's blocking my microwave. It's my motivation.
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